I’ve been dreaming repetitively— I instantly forget them when I wake but I’m stirred afterward and that I’ve yet to figure out. Wish I knew more about the purpose and concept of my dreaming. Whether it be far off/distant worries or anxieties I’m unaware of or obvious factual subjects.. Either way I’m praying for a good dream tonight.

I’m spotting patterns in my life; ones I like and ones I prefer to be without.. Either way it makes life beautiful.

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Billie Holiday - I’ll Be Seeing You

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It’s been about 6 months since I’ve visited you. The “you” I just mentioned can be so many things; not just blogging.

Ever since I’ve gotten married my life has undergone so many incredible changes. With a background in “Fear of Change” it’s definitely been an adjustment but with a sustainer and friend like Jesus, He’s kept me sane. It’s been a season of isolation and natural separation from people I love and care about but it’s been one that has allowed me to truly become one with the man God’s placed in my life and has allowed me to become more reliant on God, himself.

Spring has just begun; I look forward to coming out of this season and moving into the next. I’m not sure what it will look like and who will be there with me but I will be faithful and will continue to respect the season for what it is.

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

Need I say more?

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is what I blurted out to him in a spontaneous moment of incredible realization. It took a few times for him to understand but I continued.. WE. ARE. GOING. TO. HAVE. PLATES! We will own the same silverware, and share a house key. Our clothes will wash in the same load and our tooth brushes will be chilling next to eachother almost every day in a little cup. We are going to be occupying the same space and sharing a room. Best of all we will share a name.

57 days and counting.

This is Mylene//better known as Brolly. She is a super human and made this shower (with the help of others) a complete success. I love her so very much.. She’s a gift.

The shower was absolutely incredible. One of the best days I’ve had in a while. It was a bittersweet ending to my week but I left that place feeling blessed and with a better sense of comfort in the love we received. With the loss of my grandfather a few days prior I was afraid a happy day couldn’t happen so soon after but my family came through, supportive as always and with smiles from ear to ear. We even received a gift “from” Gramps that provided a chuckle due to a family inside joke. He may be physically gone but he sure left a legacy behind him that we will cherish as long as we can. I’m sad that He couldn’t make it to see me walk down the isle but I’m blessed to have known him the way I did and to tell him that I love him one more time.

On a sweeter note; 47 Days until my heart is officially divided between two: the lover of my soul and my new lover of my life (1 Corinthians 7:33-35). My God is a jealous God..so it means a lot to me that he would allow me to be shared with someone else heh.

And not freaking out yet..

Check back in with me in two weeks, hah.

Tomorrow, it’s show{er} time. I’m super antsy just because I don’t know what to really expect. I get so weird in situations where I’m anywhere near the “main attraction”. Good thing I’ll have Ray to hide behind—kinda. I’m excited to see a bunch of people I love crammed into our interestingly awesome choice of venue— hopefully they’re okay with being “up close and personal’ with everyone in attendance. I’m thrilled to see the faces of those supporting us and the ones that have played a part in the relationship God established for Ray and I. The gifts will just be small cherries on top. What I look forward to the most?… The food.. let’s be honest.

I’m sitting in bed…bouncing about a little. I just received my first piece of clothing, in the mail that I’ve ordered, that I’m taking to the moon with my hunni 6/7/12 @ approx 9am. Plus we just “received our first gift” from a mysterious someone.. But the jitters are officially here. The tingly flutterflies of anticipation are here flying about to tell me the time is coming that my love and I will no longer be two but one until forever. This all use to be a dream of mine.. it’s just sitting in now.. that its finally my reality.

I’m so happy.

I truly believe all we encounter in life is attached to a lesson that is to be learned, or is an opportunity for growth and maturity. This season I’ve been trucking through {engagment} has been so tough.. but God, I don’t really think I would take it any other way. I’ve learned an enormous amount about myself, my fiance’, my family, my God, my world! I’ve been stretched, challenged, worn, but strengthened as an outcome. I’ve learned how to depend on Ray like I will continue to do so for the rest of ours lives and to find comfort even in the times where we feel we are completely on our own. The lesson? It makes me thrust my palm to my forehead.. We are never alone. There is never “no hope” and we are completely covered. I’ve been reminded on the regular that God, my father, is always at work on my behalf and he always has my best interest. He is the owner of everything and he knows my needs…(very well) and will not hesitate to provided for us as He see’s fit. I’m also STILL learning to be patient with him, and with life.. He’s got everything planned and everything will happen right on schedule there is no need to jump ahead of something that is already perfect. So every bump that I’ve encountered, every feeling of stress and wanting to flip out, every “melt down” and moment of saddness was apart of this perfect plan. And I will continue to do my best to follow it because I have found nothing but happiness and satisfaction in the end. God is good.. all the time. Try Him for yourself.

I miss coffee. I won’t even lie. Working around it too. The corporate life is cool, don’t get me wrong but man there isn’t anything like smelling coffee all day, having free access to it all day, spilling it all over the place and it being okay, making grumpy people happy again, and discovering different peoples stories while doing it all..
Plus the coffee at the office sucks.

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You Have Me- Gungor

Out on the farthest edge
There in the silence you were there
My faith was torn to shreds
My heart out of balance
And you were there

Always faithful
Always good
You still
Have me
You still have my heart

I thought I had seen the end everything broken
But you were there
I’ve wandered at Heaven’s gate
I’ve made my bed in Hell
But you were there still


You have me
You have me
You have my heart completely