Sure this new season in life is meant to be full of change, excitement and what-notery.. and I AM really enjoying the realization of Gods timing in this area of my life has in fact come to fruition. However the melancholy that dwells in the tiniest, darkest corners of my personality is not liking the realization that change and separation will have to happen eventually in many relationships, situations, positions, etc. This is the number one thing I am not feeling great about. I’m already feeling tension at work, with friends, even something weird in the family area but that’s expected.

Ofcourse every time my mind thinks something I like to combat the silly thoughts with the truth of Gods words. Hebrews 13:8 tells me straight up: Christ is the same yesterday today and forever.

Here is where I feel like a complete goof. I realize I’m extra dependent on keeping temporal things forever when its impossible. Everything and everyone plays their roles in a lifetime. That is the reason for seasons. I’m praying that God helps me hold loosely to the temporal and allows me to cling to things that are never changing—His love, His word, His promises, Him.

Honestly even the thought of my position in my family being the youngest, only girl, last child in the nest—now into fully independent woman, living with new husband, one day to-be mother etc.. its kinda scary. But God, with you in control and knowing that you always WILL be..provides some ease.

For those in my life at this time… know that I love you very dearly and pray that I have played a somewhat important role in your life and plan on doing so until God says it’s time for change.

-Leesh